FUMING

BLOODY HELL!

and i mean it very very much! At moments like this...i feel like the world most stupid arse, dumbo idiotic donkey who does not even understand this world @ all. I gave up so many fine opportunities for better career advancement for a stupid company whom i thot appreciate me, and treat me like their own.

Boy, i was so truly truly wrong about myself. Who am i anyway ? Just some worthless piece of junk. 5 years i slogged for this company. And in the end, i wasnt even appreciated AT ALL! Trying to "chase" me away so tat their daughter in law could take over my position. Great JUST great. And telling lia to learn as much things from me as possible before i leave. Its disheartening. And low. How low can someone make u feel ?

Why did i even care how they felt and tried to make everything nicely before i leave so that the next poor girl would not suffer! Why am i always trying to be so nice... when i dont even feel at all nice deep inside ? Why am i smiling when i'm so hurt and disappointed ? Why do i encourage people when i dont feel any trace of hope in me ? Why am i so stupid ?

to top it off...i got a toothache!!!